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Wednesday, September 27
# 11:50 AM

26th sept.

26th sept is the day tt is impt if we din break up.

today went early like ytd to meet meow meow at JE. Thou onli see her for a few second. Bt i'm already very happy. she need to rush off to attachment.. miss her alot today. didn receive replies frm her.. however when we meet in the evenin.. she explained to mi.. n wit nt even a single doubt i trust all her words.

went to have dinner.. meow dun allow mi to eat.. haha. cuz i'm goin to the steamboat at marina south wit friend aft i send her to sch.. she is so beautiful.. listen to her talkin, see her smilin, somehow i feel so happy.. wish to b with her longer..

went to the steamboat.. its to celebrate one of my friend's bdae.. was damn tired.. so juz sit there n sms meow.. bt meow is study.. so dun dare disturb her much.. we the 7 bros talk alot.. cuz mayb too long didn gather together to talk.. all the 7 of us.. *Bin, Sheng, Xiong, Ran, Wei, Thomas n mi..* i somehow noe i have made a mistake to go home later to chat with them.. n i miss meow..

27th sept..

today.. i hate myself alot.. due to ytd late home.. i cant wake up tis mornin.. cant meet meow in the mornin.. i feel so empty.. miss sch lesson.. i feel very bad.. cuz my result is nt the best.. yet... sigh.. i hate myself.. i wan to change.. i wan to b a better guy.. i wan to study hard n stuff.. i wan my future to b good for meow.. if she ever comin back.. bt i wan to change.. the mi n the past sucks.. its nt mi.. i finally realise tt aft the broke up.. i'm nth bt a failure.. always wan do something den in the end cant do it.. bt tis time no matter wat i will try.. for my sake, for meow sake, for the future sake. i will try.. wish meow later will call or sms mi den i can meet her.. >.<

wee.. meow meow called mi.. we meet up at kranji.. cuz i was kinda late.. den she already reach CCK so she move on to kranji n meet up.. we talked, laugh, play n stuff. it was fun.. i love tt.. haha.. she try to nt get angry so fast n stuff.. can see tt.. haha bt to mi, mayb i stil nt use to it.. i feel she had changed.. no longer the innocent meow meow i noe.. bt nvm human change n stuff. if the past character is her true self.. oneday she will b back.

we went to eat at yoshinoya again. haha.. tis time i eat with her.. feel so happy.. i dunno if its tt she wan or she is juz playin with mi.. bt she feed mi fries.. feel very happy.. >.< send her to sch like past 2 days.. see her went in to the class n my heart feel empty again.. miss her.. cuz i noe once she went in.. its hard to talk again.. cuz when she work, study.. its hard for her to sms mi.. n i dun wan to disturb her too.. so as usual.. i went home..

at WDL bus interchange.. i saw Ran.. he takin a big cake.. haha i noe who the cake belongs to.. its mosquito's.. a girl who Ran likes b4.. dunno now stil got or nt.. Ran ask mi to acc him to go meet her.. cuz she is my 14 years of friend.. n its true.. i noe her for 14 years. haha.. so the 3 of us talk n stuff den put candle n she make wish n stuff.. walk home.. mi n Ran walk to SPC patrol station n buy milk.. we talk alot.. its like when we were at sec5.. mi n Ran talk alot.. haha.. good buddy..

reach home.. smsed meow.. i noe she wont reply cuz she studyin.. juz miss her.. haha.. see her so tired i oso feel painful for her.. T.T really wish i can give her my energy.. so she can b more cheerful.. its late le.. wish her good night.. wish to tell her i love her.. bt.. its useless.. nth will change.. i will have to change more n make her trust mi more.. ^.^

God bless everyone.. thank you meow for smilin n talkin to mi.. i feel very happy ^.^ sry if i din make u happy. i will try harder..

; wings of hope where are you?___`
Zean aka Tsuki
single
10 march 1988