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Sunday, September 24
# 3:55 PM

came over to meow meow house.. she asked mi to come over to help her with the sewin of her skirt..

wake up early came over to her house.. waited for her happily bt to receive a piss off sms.. sigh.. i dunno wat have i done to make her tt way.. guess she is juz hatin mi..

things slowly went well bt we quarrel again.. i dun like it.. sigh..

tink i more n more like him.. tt bastard.. if i can call him bastard den i myself is a bastard too..

i tink she really hate mi for botherin her.. i really wish we can b like last time.. nt really as couple type bt as close friend type.. like how we were when i was her "daddy"

accidentally saw her sms.. guess she is really close to kero.. she tell him tt i was botherin her.. n kero was like some hero.. reply tt if need help he will come over.. ( i dun mind lero being like tis.. cuz if were mi i will oso do it. however they juz noe each other nt long. n he seems interested to her.. i feel very pain.. bt it was i who make things to tis stage.. if onli i dun hide things in the past, dun pester her now. guess she wont ask some guy for help.)

things i'm gonna change..

*i will nt hide anything frm her anymore.
*i will slowly make her trust mi.
*be myself n talk things out if ever we have argument in the future.
*wish she can oso change her attitude towards mi as days past.
*i will wait for her til the day she is ready to come back.
*i Muz grow tall.
*same as b4 dun like guys who flirt her. i noe she will nt go for guys in the past. bt dunno now. bt i tink those guys r the bad one who always wan her.. despo guys.. hate it.
*talk to guys its ok, juz like i talk to girls. juz dun take advantage of her. if i noe i will kill the guy.

things i promise to her n myself

* i will change.
* i will nt find any other girls.
* marry her aft i get her back. ( its a long long promise which i keep cuz i really mean it)

afterall. i will have to change to someone who i m alittle b4 i noe her.. tts the time when i'mthe best i tink. bt now i wan to b better.

no matter if u were to come back or have a relationship. i will stil wait for u. no matter wat.

hmm frm tml on.. things will change.. she will b busy, i will b busy.. guys will ask her out more, sms her call her more.. bt i cant do anything. so wait.. haha.. ganbatte to myself.

to ppl who read my blog. if u noe abt my problem n dun like it. u either tell mi if nt go away. whether u r friend or ppl who backstab mi.. one day i will noe.

lastly.. meow meow i love u forever. i will wait. haha i sound so freak. bt its cuz i really love her n dun wan to pester her anymore. so other guys dun have chance... I SO BAD!!!! lol..

; wings of hope where are you?___`
Zean aka Tsuki
single
10 march 1988