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Saturday, October 7
# 6:44 PM

meow dunwan mi to find her anymore.. sigh.. y..

will she come back n talk to mi when she is better? i dunno.. she oso dun reply my sms n stuff.. sigh.. y does things happen like tt..

she hold on to the past too much.. everything she will link to the past..

guess other guys who is ard her is interested in her.. how i wish i'm stil with her now.. den i can take care of her.. those guys.. nt really very good.. bad influence actually.. bt does she even listen to mi? no.. anyway she wan to b with them i oso cannot do anything..

my wife is gone.. sad.. hope someday she will come back to mi.. bt i tink its impossible..

tink she off sch le.. bt no reply frm her.. i tink she when to meet those guys.. sigh.. play pool n stuff.. hated it.. never really like them.. meow is the most important person in the world to mi.. i regard her as my wife.. cuz i wanted her to b.. however i'm at fault in the past tt i didn cherish her until now den i start.. bt she say its too late.. i really hope she can dun hold on to the past n forgive mi n forget.. let us start anew.. i wil treat her better..

my mistakes
*give in too much in the past till she expect things frm mi bt i cant do it..
*hide things frm her (wry she get angry, she angry will ignore mi T.T)
*do something she dun like (i'm sry i will nt anymore)
*dun trust her (cuz she dunno the limit of herself.. always wan go do the clubbin n stuff)
*didn give her freedom (if she noe the limit of herself i will.. she dun even dare to talk to ppl n showin weak side to other ppl of cuz i wry)

things i do i have my reason.. bt its too late.. anyway i will wait.. cuz i really wan her to b my wife in the future.. we may dun suit each other.. bt 1 year plus bind us together even more.. tis is frm my side.. i dunno her.. mayb she dun like mi in the beginnin.. or mayb she dun wan forgive mi.. give her sometime will she tink abt it? will she come back? i dunno.. juz really pray she dun get in disadvantage.. those guys she is with is nt good.. n the girls she is with.. some is showin bad examples.. n stuff.. meow dun really noe wat is good n bad.. she can tell onli some.. bt in human communication, body language, hidden signal n stuff. she stil dunno..

guess i will go mad tis period of time.. nt use to it.. wry abt her.. cuz she is too impt to mi.. so tts y i will wry so much.. she is my precious.. does she noe tt? cuz of my past. she hated mi.. bt in the past i'm immature.. i didn mistakes. everyone did mistakes.. n aft some mistakes n stuff den they start to learn.. i wish she can gimmi a chance to b with her.. i turn over a new leaf.. T.T meow.. i really miss u.. hope u din really go out with those guys.. or even single goin out with 1 guy.. sigh.. especially Kero n stuff..

u tell other ppl ur stuff.. bt nt mi anymore.. feel heartache.. i wish we never will quarrel n u can forgive mi n stuff.. den we can happily together.. T.T

i love u meow meow..i really do.. T.T

; wings of hope where are you?___`
Zean aka Tsuki
single
10 march 1988