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Wednesday, November 29
# 9:23 PM

HAHA.. tis is my first time in my life to say out wish list.. or rather let ppl noe my kinda full wishlist for christmas..
cuz i noe no matter wat no one will buy them for mi.. since young.. haha

-Wishlist-

1) wish to be together with the girl i love. i will cherish her.. never to hurt her again.. (most ppl noe who is she)

2) wish to make ppl ard mi happy.. wish i can b happy n carefree like last time.. i dun like stress

3) wish can pass all my test. exam or obstacles in life

4) wish can sing better, b more cool

5) grow more build n taller

somemore bt currently cant remember~

*things tt need $$ to buy*

1) wish for a hp with good camera, nt best nvm. with MP3 n external memory like miniSD

2) wish for a PSP.. need some game to carry mi away from reality

3) wish for clothes tt suit mi n suit my style

4) wish for new shoes

5) wish for more accessory to go with my clothes

6) wish for more bags

7) wish to go overseas trip with her

8) wish to have more $$ in wallet so can go out more

somemore bt currently cant remember~

; wings of hope where are you?___`


I will n muz try my best..

I'm serious about u..

No matter what i muz survive on..

Someday.. yea someday..

Ganbatte..

; wings of hope where are you?___`


Monday, November 20
# 11:14 AM

sunday.. the day of basara meetin..

lunch is good.. though i cant eat finish..
went to taian house..
on the way she "heal" mi
feel so comfortable n touch.

things kinda good throughout the whole day..
very happy..

she was late for home..
sent her home by cab.. talked alot at the food centre, cab n everything.
tink i have slowly understand her more..
i dun wan my old past.. the past tt i onli cause hurt to her..
i slowly gettin a new self.. hope she will like it.. n i like it too..

love may have some obstacles.. however if can overcome.. things will b better..

there will b a rainbow aft the heavy rain..

; wings of hope where are you?___`


Thursday, November 16
# 8:44 PM

i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie i din lie..

i really din lie.. i have been tryin n learnin my mistake from the past..
dun get jealous easily,
give u freedom,
trusting you,
not to commit wat i have did tt hurt u,
get a job fast to b financial stable,
smile more to u and nt expect too much,
and alot more to learn.

bt why cant u trust tt i have learnt n change..
everyday and night.. i miss u badly.. juz to pretend tt u r here.
so i can survive on.
trusting tt someday u will come back.
aft u dun pin mi down so much.. release some hatred..
i onli need a chance where u will see my change n nt to keep tinkin tt i lie.

the past is my fault.. it never too late to change n start a new..
it juz whether u believe. i will wait.. no matter wat.
u r the only one i love.

; wings of hope where are you?___`


Wednesday, November 15
# 8:45 PM

“Friends” it’s a nice drama. A drama which I like when I saw it the first time few years back.

Today I feel very lost.. trying my best to stay on without her..
Its very hard.. I will not give up..

Anyway.. gastric is not very good this few days.. cant eat much, no appetite.
Trying my best to eat however.. just cant get the food in.. every time I force..
I feel like vomiting.
Still thinking how to make my gastric better..

Try to forget about the past.. wan to know her again..
Start a new.. so I wont keep saying the past stuff..

No matter what I will try till I lay death on the floor..
She is my only precious.. this I swear she is..
I cant live without her. Trying very hard telling myself that someday she will be back.
That’s how I survive currently..

I have to learn my mistake.. understand her.. as a friend first..
Trying my best not to disturb her that much..
I wish she can talk/chat with mi nicely and not in angry mood or irritated mood..
When she in that mood.. she tend to put whatever I say into negative.
I also wish to talk to her like others does.. also wish she can reply mi like how she reply others..
If that happen.. then at least can communicate better..

I don’t know if what I’m doing is helping my future or making it worst.. but I believe. Someday.. perhaps a long long time when miracles happen.. she might come back..
Till then I will wait for her.. I promise.. I will love her and cherish her..
If we can pass this round and get back together.. our love will be stronger.. and we will understand each other better..

; wings of hope where are you?___`


Monday, November 13
# 7:11 PM

it have a long time eversince i blog

there have been happy moment n sad moment..

first everything goes fine.. we were happy together chatting n stuff..
happily as for mi.. for her i tink she is somehow sad sometime..
however things is rather better as for talkin n stuff..

last friday.. she went on a date..
aft it.. which is on sat.. i was told nt to b too close with her..
she said it to mi..
where have all the alright moment gone to..
juz cuz he is better n can make u happier..
n now we cant even talk like the past?

perhaps is my bad.. however i stil feel lost n miserable..
wat m i suppose to do now.. i wan her back.. i love her..
i cant live without her.. however seein other guys better then mi..
its hurts mi alot.. i feel defeated..
i cant change the past.. if i can i will wish i can treat her better..
cherish, care n love her..

my princess have found a better prince or rather a better life..
i do wish to let her b.. bt i currently cant.. i cant..
i'm a weakling..

i juz wish i wasnt born so as nt to hurt her in the past.. i'm sry..
pls come back to mi..

; wings of hope where are you?___`
Zean aka Tsuki
single
10 march 1988