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Sunday, June 10
# 12:59 AM

Zest..

alot had happen..

i cant do a thing bt to face it..

failed my prac.. theory comin, damn tired yet need to study n cant study..

.. Read her blog.. perhaps i tink too much again.. however its her blog.. i cant say much..

shane.. shengli.. y m i so sensitive to guys ard her.. thou i noe i dun like it in heart.. i cant say out.. or rather i will control nt to say out..

*then nevermind, worst still,shengli even saw mi cried lor DAMNED !*
*demo ne, i felt alot better when shengli came over and said"aiyah, first test only. dun think so much"it really made mi feel better .*

tis sentence for mi.. i read it as she have some crush on him, or rather feelin for him.. if nt y would a lady write so.. ^_^

*sigh. when shane called mi to ask mi my marks,i din want to answer himbut when he forced mi to,*
*when i finally stopped the tears,shane came over and consolled us*
*shane's ice cream :x*

y can he force u yet i cant? haha ^_^

alot.. i dun understand.. bt wat can i do.. nth..

nth can stay with mi forever.. even i wish she can b the one..
however i tink.. she have found better ones.. haha..

have u realise tt i dun talk abt friends?
answer is i dun really hang out with friend.. n my friends.. ya they r call friends.. how many really noe abt mi?

i somehow really wish i can care yet somehow wish i can dun care..

KHK have become stressin.. no one really care abt how i feel anyway.. to them.. i'm actin in irresponsible tinkin..

have to dance out my stress, my saddness.. n alot.. who noes? no one..

i love her.. so i tink i have to learn to let go.. mayb tt 2 guys or some others in the future can give her better love n life.. those life she likes.. i'm juz some unless one tt cant give her wat she wans or understand her.. nt ard her side 24/7 or rather her friends is beside her more den mi.. ha.. eventually i will lose out.. bt does anyone noe tt? haha.. stress.. she feels when being with mi.. i feel sad hearin tt.. bt stil.. like i say.. wat can i do.. i cant change her feelin or her way of thinkin abt other ppl.. ^_^

learn to let go.. if she is urs.. she will learn to cherish u.. learn to look n understand u.. take the initiative to quietly learn more abt u.. b ur listenin ears instead of tellin u her.. its a fair world..
when u r nt as good or better den others.. u lose out..

if she tink others r better.. in talkin to her. console her.. or watever it is.. let it b.. there will b someday she will appreciate u or... other will appreciate u..

its juz life.. live on if u cant.. die when u really need to..

i'm nth.. juz a saddist in smiling face.. its hard to understand mi afterall..

; wings of hope where are you?___`
Zean aka Tsuki
single
10 march 1988