Where will the wing bring me to?

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Monday, July 30
# 2:17 AM

i start to dislike myself..

i dunno y.. i always tink lowly abt myself..
however.. its the fact tt i'm nt good..

i expect too muhc..
too demandin..
too selfish..
too attention seekin..
too much tis too much tt..

i dunno..

whenever i get something i wan.. i will b greedy n wan more..

somehow there r more things.. bt i dunno how to say out.. bt i noe myself tt i'm bad.

i dun tink anyone can accept who i m..

its really hard to..

i wont give excuse like stress or wat.. bt.. its really stressin..

i tink some ppl ard mi.. dislike mi for who i m.. or things i do.. or did..
ppl heard story abt mi.. see mi in person n stuff.. sure i believe will have ppl dislike abt mi.. bt i cant do anything to stop them from disliking mi..

friends ard mi noe abit of my difficulty n try to help.. however.. it made mi feel even worst.. feel i'm being pity.. being look down..

thou they say.. sometime in life.. a human need help from others.. bt i dunno.. i feel really bad.. feel hurt too.. thou helpin mi cut away the trouble at tt moment.. bt aft being helped.. i feel more uncomfortable for i "owe" them..

sigh.. i dunno.. i seriously dunno wat is right n wrong to do.. accept help or dun..

being too selfish too.. arg.. i wish i can understand wats goin on.. n find a solution to save myself..

y m i so uesless.. so weak.. so........

PPL dun try to pity mi cuz i say out stuff like tis.. or get angry cuz of tis too..
i juz need place to shout out.. ... ... gomen ne...

; wings of hope where are you?___`